She sat with him, taking in his questions. She felt as if she was sitting in the middle of a photo album, living scenes played out before them. She was still very close to him, head nuzzled under his arm. He mentioned the scars on her back. âThe star⦠that is my mark since birth. It is very special to me and no harm can come of it. At all times it is to be hidden from view. But it is why I am known as Star instead of my real name.â She turned and looked into his eyes, he would know exactly what it was, silent messages felt to him. She couldnât tell him about the burns though⦠that would break his heart. But she needed not say a word as the living mosaic played back a memory of long ago. He would see himself in a lifeless state of being as she held him tenderly, but quick actions as she came to consciousness and he began to convulse upon the ground. The energy building around him manifest into a fire, Star quickly threw her body over his, sacrificing herself for his wellbeing. This was the cause of the burns. She sighed as the scene played over and over again, like a bad tape. âIt was my fault⦠I didnât solve the puzzle correctly and caused much harm to youâ¦â she was referring to the labyrinth of his mind.
He asked of Nall and her father. âhe was too much for me to carry anymore. Without you around my demon side was evolving too quickly, and the craving of slaughtering innocents was too much to bare. Nall was stronger then I and so Father moved to him⦠he prefers being a wolf, for that is a shape he took often when living. (Her father is Marchosias, you all can look him up)â Nall was her familiar was with her for her whole life. Every scene and picture of her there was Nall close by. Watchful eye always. âFather granted the needs to protect me when I couldnât find you⦠I lost the will to live, the will to survive. Nall did it for me, Father made sure of it.â
The next question hit her like a tons of bricks. She had once asked Kal if he would like to have a family⦠but she never spoke of hers. She could feel the orb reacting to this new power, this peaceful state of being. Her look turned dark and she was taken back to years before she would have met Kalamos. There the scene played out for Kal to observe, Star fought off tears as she knew it was going to happen:
-Star lay pregnant and looking up to a huge vampiric demon. She looked on with care, with fear, but no love was felt from her as she spoke to this being, although anyone could tell that had been together for whatever reason it neednât mattered. Voices became yells and soon Star was begging on her knees, fear clearly in her eyes, something Kal hadnât seen in her before, a fear that mother has when their child is in danger. Hands held to her stomach as the child kicked, upset by the rage forming within Star. The male being held Starâs clearly tiny and powerless body down, sharp blade flickered from the light hitting it. The blade disappeared into her flesh⦠the child cut from her. Star was losing blood quickly, too quick. She tried to fight back as he held the child in front of him. There was a infant child girl, covered in a bloody mess⦠star could hear her baby crying, and watched in horror as the male turned into a rage. The child eyes were too blue and the hair was clearly yellow⦠this was not his child. Rather, it was Macewindâs child.. She loved Macewind, she cared not for this being⦠she was forced into being with him, held in his realm against her own will. He was outraged that the child was not his⦠and in an instant there was the sickening cracking of bones and the crying stopped. Zoycite had lost masses of blood by now, she couldnât make a sound when her child stopped crying, she watched as he turned with lifeless doll in his hands and dropped it to the ground. The scream that came from Star was more powerful and filled with rage then Kal would ever bear witness to. But in this realm, she was rendered powerless⦠blood pouring from her, only screaming of sorrow and hate escaping her. (in fact this was the only time Nall wasnât present, he was with Rosie looking for Star) The figure left⦠the realm disappeared and Star was left to die⦠-
By the time the scene ended Star was fighting the urge to cry. She swallowed hard, head still hung low. She pointed to the white orb as it escaped through her breast, âThis is herâ¦â and it manifested into the perfect infant child, she looked like a porcelain doll with the most blue eyes and such blonde hair. In her mind, Star kept this child, and she would often lose herself in these memories, wanting a child. She adopted Rosie as her own, after Blade was lost, âHer name is Bladeâ¦. And I carry her with me. This way, she will get to see the world and feel things such as love.â tears filled emerald eyes as the child slept peacefully before turning back into an orb and circled her and Kal. Slowly Star was breathing, choking back the tears⦠âyou never knew of my past, love⦠because it is all too painful sometimes.â
The power was shifting more now. She didnât want this peace to end. She could have stayed in his mind forever. Right now, she cared to just be in his arms.
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